well last post might have seemed like an anti climax of some sort! :p
with a c section i wasnt allowed to get up and especially raise my head at all. i could see Bumpy but not too properly since i couldnt hold him for two whole days. the pain wasnt too bad and i seemed to manage fine. day 3 the teaty eyed new mom finally held the baby and it felt wonderful!! :)
day 4 we were home to a warm welcome and cosy room and bed! my stitches were still hurting a l'il bit but i was moving around and lot more comfortable than me or anyone else might have expected! beauty of modern medicine i guess.
since i couldnt get up, even feeding Bumpy was out of question initially! and after that started the great war of breastfeeding. i thought i was incapable of feeling low and being depressed, but now i think postpartum depression is simply unavoidable. i mean here you are holding the child you have been waiting for since what seems like eternity, but you are shedding buckets of tears for no reason. i started thinking i dont love him and stated feeling even worse! i just didnt want to be around him for too long! and then my sweetheart hubby started talking to other women pals who had been there and done that and they all vouched for the fact that it just happens and goes away too! and today i can say it! so dont feel guilty if you feel like the throwing the child away as long as you dont actually do it! :p
it took me almost a month to feel maternal and there are still times when i feel very detached! but now i am sure its just a matter of time! :)
bumpy is an adorable kid! touchwood! though right now he doesnt do much other than pee and poo and bawl, we all wait for that elusive half smile that we get to see when he is sleeping! we go awwww when he has a 5 min long stretching session before he wakes up. talk to him and feel kicked even if he does one Hmmmm in half an hour long conversation!
life has definitely changed! more of the travails sooooon!!
Bumpy you are one helluva special kid! love ya!
Friday, August 31, 2007
Friday, August 3, 2007
THE arrival! :)
Doc got bored of waiting!! hehe!! he said come get admitted and we will induce labour! we wanted another date, but doc looked at his convenience and said nahi ussi din karennge!!
so i got admitted on thursday, 19th July 2007 and i didnt get a proper n cool A/C room leaving me sweating it out in a shared dorm. I could hardly sleep anyway! i was sitting and reading and nurses kept coming and going, giving me some medics or other, checking my BP etc. Finally she called me saying doc will induce labour at like 3.30am. everyone told me that being first pregnancy and all that my labour wont start for 6-7hrs least. i was like okie. but by 530am i was already feeling contractions and bleeding all over the place! i was howling in pain. i called my husband hollering at him and telling them to come to hospital rightaway and what the hell were they doing!
by 7am i was almost completely dialated and doc said theres no time to call for epidural as well and that i should be able tod eliver normally within an hours time! i was like Ok whatever! just get it out!! :p
by 730 Bumpys heartrate started dropping as doctors were guiding me to push with my contractions. but the heartrate was a matter of concern and doc said we would have to do a C Section. and soon i was getting anaesthesia while feeling the contractions driving me crazy!
by 8, rather 7.58am to be precise, my Bumpy was BORN! :) they cleaned him up and held him up saying its a BOY! i just looked and then fell into drugged stupor!
uske baad kya hua... watch this space!! :D
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