well last post might have seemed like an anti climax of some sort! :p
with a c section i wasnt allowed to get up and especially raise my head at all. i could see Bumpy but not too properly since i couldnt hold him for two whole days. the pain wasnt too bad and i seemed to manage fine. day 3 the teaty eyed new mom finally held the baby and it felt wonderful!! :)
day 4 we were home to a warm welcome and cosy room and bed! my stitches were still hurting a l'il bit but i was moving around and lot more comfortable than me or anyone else might have expected! beauty of modern medicine i guess.
since i couldnt get up, even feeding Bumpy was out of question initially! and after that started the great war of breastfeeding. i thought i was incapable of feeling low and being depressed, but now i think postpartum depression is simply unavoidable. i mean here you are holding the child you have been waiting for since what seems like eternity, but you are shedding buckets of tears for no reason. i started thinking i dont love him and stated feeling even worse! i just didnt want to be around him for too long! and then my sweetheart hubby started talking to other women pals who had been there and done that and they all vouched for the fact that it just happens and goes away too! and today i can say it! so dont feel guilty if you feel like the throwing the child away as long as you dont actually do it! :p
it took me almost a month to feel maternal and there are still times when i feel very detached! but now i am sure its just a matter of time! :)
bumpy is an adorable kid! touchwood! though right now he doesnt do much other than pee and poo and bawl, we all wait for that elusive half smile that we get to see when he is sleeping! we go awwww when he has a 5 min long stretching session before he wakes up. talk to him and feel kicked even if he does one Hmmmm in half an hour long conversation!
life has definitely changed! more of the travails sooooon!!
Bumpy you are one helluva special kid! love ya!
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Sad to hear about your pains after the c-sec.
This line made me laugh out so loud that my hubby was looking at me as if I've gone crazy - "so dont feel guilty if you feel like the throwing the child away as long as you dont actually do it! "
hey nm!!
the pain wasnt half as bad as everyone expected it to be!! or maybe my threshhold is better! hehe!!
Bumpy is still very much with me, which means i havent thrown him! and i do love him A LOT now!! :)
cheers!
abha
Congratulations mama-mia ! I had a C too...and 4.5 months post-partum I am jus' fine...well if you leave out the fat that is ;)
Nice to meet you here. Will be back soon.
Have fun with Bumpy!
thanx parul!!
so true about the fat bit!! :( am doing quite ok already otha than occassional killer backaches!
keep in touch!
cheers!
abha
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