Day 2 - Letter 2 - The Crush

I haven’t had a real crush in a loooong time. Maybe a little lusting over Benedict Cumberbatch in recent past, but no one that made my heart skip a beat or made me go crazy!

So then, we must write the letter to our first and maybe only crush! :) You definitely KNOW who you are because I did tell you and we became real good friends after that and have been since.

Dear Crush,

The thing I fell for, when it came to you, was the eyes! The deep brown eyes so full of expressions of every sort. I think they still stay as amazing. Then there was your sense of humour and comic timing (now that I look back, I always had it for men who could make me laugh!) and the ease with which you made friends and made them feel special.

I was THE plain Jane amongst all the girls. I do not think you even noticed me to start with. I remember feeling that you were going to be the love of life. My one true desire that was going to be fulfilled. I also remember standing outside the neighbour’s house hoping to get a glimpse of you. Even if you did not see me, at least I got to saw you. Just walking past, going about your day.

I would sing ridiculous sappy love songs and sway to ‘Pehla Nasha’ actually dreaming of such moments. WE did become friends eventually, but I also saw that this would be a one way street! With all my romantic notions, I wasn’t ready for unrequited love. So one day, with much ‘emotional atyaachaar’ I told you that I really LOVED you and I also knew that there was no future in this pyaar. But I could not get past this feeling unless I told you about it! You were very sweet about it. I don’t remember what you said. Maybe nothing.

Surprisingly, I did get over you quick enough once I had told you. We also became good friends. You spoke to ME about your heartache one day. You have moved past your first love too as impossible as it seemed to you then. Life came to some sort of full circle then.

Today, we have been both blessed by excellent partners who love and cherish us.

I still think of you fondly, flirt with you when we meet and love embarrassing the hell out of you! You might be getting older, just the way I am too, but your eyes, my dear man, can still melt hearts and move mountains. Yes, they can! 

Thank you for being sweet about a naïve teenage girl’s first crush. We almost never speak just like that, but I know the moment we meet, it will be like we have been talking forever.

Let’s just say I could not have asked for a nicer first crush! Stay blessed!

Love

Abha