thank you HELMET!! I think...

Now now! Before you start imagining I have started my new year with a bang of another sorts, let me assure you alls well with me Head to Toe (except thinning hair n chipped nail polish! and the excess weight).

This is not about how the helmet saved my life, though I know it does a good job of it and recco one and all to wear one if you riding a two wheeler. Pillion rider doing it should not be laughed at and called paranoid either. I think it's nice to value your own life at all times. Only then can you take care of others. But then I digress.

Remember I had spoken about Cubby's "Hemme" (helmet) obsession in his 15month update? Well, it's still pretty much there and sighting of one is equivalent of being in paradise. M keeps talking about taking him to a helmet shop JUST to see his reaction. Yeah! Another one of those cheap parenting thrills. We are yet to do that and frankly I have quite warmed to the idea! :p And there I digress AGAIN.

So this morning, as soon I started getting ready for work, Cubby started crying and clinging to my legs. Amma took him to the balcony to show him dog, babies and whatever else catches his fancy so that I can get ready and leave on time.

I was set to leave and came out to say Bye to Cubby. As a principle, I NEVER leave hiding from him or by distracting him. I make sure I say a confident and cheery bye and hope that it will reduce his separation anxiety to an extent. We don't want him to think that we disappear everytime he looks away.

Now that he understands we go away and he doesn't like it, a good-bye smile doesn't come easily. He seems to say "I am not buying your smile! I KNOW you are leaving me and going away." Today also he had his grumpy face - not allowing it to break into a smile inspite of all my attempts. So then I said him "I will go down, wear my red helmet and say bye to you!"

I had uttered the magic word. My son who was till then sulking because I was going to office, physically pushed me towards the stairs, pointed towards them when I didn't move much and said a loud n clear Helmette! Both Amma and me burst out laughing and ofcos Cubby had to join in too. I could hear everyone's laughter including mine till I reached ground floor.

As I wore my helmet and waved to Cubby I could hear a faint helmette and saw a short wave by when an autorickshaw and some kids had already taken my baby's attention away! :)

So much for missing his Mom, huh?! :D

it's official now!

am back after a loooong hiatus! well am back in office which means internet access without having to beg hubby for his laptop @ home!

i know! i know! you are wondering what kind of a mother IS she?? she hasnt mentioned seperation pangs at all and is harping on about getting 8hrs of non-stop internet access!

well! ofcourse i AM worried! i am scared and anxious! i have always said that sitting at home isnt an option for me, not because i have a great career going, but simply because i enjoy my time out in the sun (even if its seen only from office window) and that little money i earn makes me feel a lot better! :)

today is day one and daddy o has sweetly agreed to work from home to make sure i am not in tears and feeling miserable! :D i am sure its a matter of time when i will get comfortable with the idea of leaving our 5month old Kabir with his favourite Rajamma. everytime i worry too much, i look back on my childhood! my mom was always working and my brother and me turned out just fine! or so i would like to believe! so CubbyR (his daddy's creation) will do super too!

amen!

on the other hand i feel oddly misplaced in my office! the fact that my place and system has been given away doesnt make it easier! i feel as if its my day one in new work place! soon i will get back into the familar groove and it will be asif i had never gone away!

so whoever is reading this... just say a little prayer for us! :)